I think for the first time ever, I missed posting on a Monday. Oh well. This is what went on in our world the past weekend or so.
I went looking for a new dining table.
Saw the most amazing lamps at Pier One
Had my wedding hair trial
Spent a lot of time in bed due to my new bedding being heaven on earth
Picked up this awesome candle
Practiced my DIY skills on this old table
Made this yummy dinner in celebration of Will coming home from Austin, TX
And that's about it :)
But one more thing...
I've been struggling lately. I like to think I am a pretty gracious person, but in the recent weeks (really months) I've been concerned that people have been percieving me as privlidged or snobby or so many things that I am not. While I do feel privledged and blessed beyond belief to have a car, be able to do and buy a lot of the things I want, and live in a comfortable home- none of this makes me feel any different than anyone else I know. And trust me, a lot of my things are NOT that nice. None of it is from lack of hard work. None of it came without blood, sweat, and tears. It's just frustrating.
I come from a city that is literally dying. Caving in on itself. The economy is basically non existant and most people sturggle to find decent jobs, if any. I have gotten more than a few comments from people about my "life now" and the size of my engagement ring and wedding or the name brands on my clothing. I feel intense guilt, almost embarrassment, every time someone comments on any of the above. And I AM SICK OF IT.
Starting today, I WILL NOT feel guilty because we have worked hard, and God has blessed us with a happy and comfortable life in return. I still sturggle. I still have student loans. I still have to wake up every day like the rest of the world and go to work. I will not feel guilty because my life used to be a constant struggle, and now I can actually sleep at night knowing bills will be paid.
That felt good.